Wednesday, April 20, 2016

I hate to say it but this is going to be the first year in a long time that I can't participate in Fantasy Faire.

This month I've been away from my sexy desktop computer with all of my programs, visiting my grandmother who's not doing so well.  My mother sent me down to visit with her because it looks like she'll be needing live-in assistance, and in the meantime I'm it.  I might even be moving down here depending on how things go, as we're looking for a more long term solution.  Unfortunately, there was no secret stash of unfinished projects that I could polish up and get ready in time for the faire before I left.

I haven't given up on Second Life, or forgotten about you guys.  I could make excuses and say that moving out of my apartment, moving into a new place, relationship changes and travel have been getting in the way, (and they have), but I know that's not the only thing that's been keeping me away.  I need to find the joy in building things again.  I've been messing around with crochet and knitting, cooking and music, but I know that those are just outlets for a stream of creativity that's gotten dammed up from stress, bad memories and internal pressure.  I need to clear away that blockage so I can make beautiful things for you guys, and for myself, because there's still no medium that can compare with the freedom that 3D modeling has given me.  Second Life is a fantastic place to express myself, where I can share my creativity and get your support in return.

I miss being a content creator.  I want to come back.  I'm working on it.

I'm amazed that you're reading this to be honest, but since you are, thanks.  Thanks for not giving up on me <3

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

You know, it's funny; You think nobody is listening, but here I am. I still remember meeting you for the first time (Viva la PURPLE!) a million years ago. You were so cool then and I still think you're an amazing person!

Life has a way of getting you away from things you like and need. I know I have a hard time making the time for the things I love. Here's hoping that things pick up a little bit for you and you can return to make more things for everyone!

Yeah, I know I'm just some random internet stranger, but maybe you'll see that you DO have people who look for you and who you matter too. Oy, that sounds corny as hell...

Anyway, here's wishing you well in the future.

-Ruri Muni

Kaelis Ebonrai said...

I'm still here, and I'm still reading, Siyu... pity you missed the faire this year - that Elven City I've been talking about forever finally happened (yeah.. who would've guessed it, they got me to build a sim this year! =D). <3 Hope things calm down and get better soon. You've always been amazing - and a whole bunch of us miss you. =)